:: trust ::

"i don't trust u"

one single message from u changed everything

U trusted me when ur overseas

but

u dont trust me when u're back in Singapore

wth !

:: Why ? ::

Friends are asking me why am i keep ignoring things happening around me ?
My answer :
will it change anything if i gave attention to it ?

Friends asking me about the bad rumors spreading about me ? Why i just keep quiet ?
My answer :
what can i do ? can it change someone perspective towards me ?

Friends asking me why i am always busy ?
My answer :
its better to get myself busy with productive things rather than doing nothing .

Friends asking me why am i getting too calculative with others ?
My answer :
If ur calculative me, then i will do the same thing .

:: extended mc ::

Being a hard headed person and can't stay at home type of person , after a few unsuccessful attempt to go out alone , i finally gather all the energy to make my way to Pasir Ris for a tuition session . By the time i reached Cik Ina's place , i felt really tired , and my nose start to bleed , seriosuly i didnt know the effect will be that bad ! . The kids told me that i looked very sick , and i have to call my cousin to fetch me because i just dont have the energy to travel home alone .

My second attempt to go out on my own was a successful , BUT tsaqib and saidah insisted to fetch me from home and make our way together to Arab street to celebrate yani's birthday . it was a fun night , usually gossips and juicy details , kids playing around , and the belly dancing show really makes my night , thanks to yana for celebrating yani, syahid and my birthday,walaupun dah due more than a month, im happy to celebrate my birthday with 2 of my favourite people !

On Sunday , i have a 3 hours long event , i tried not to show my sickness, but the clients notice it , they can see how bloated my face is , i didnt realised it until when i see it for myself , by then i know something was not right .... but i still proceed to Arab street to celebrate faizal's birthday and dinner with besties, it has been ages when i last saw them .

Went to Raffles hsopital , Dr Aw was shocked to see my face, and the high tempreture , he suspected that im allergic to one of the medication , after being tested and scope , yes the put a thin tube on my nose and push it in , my wound inside my nose, its not healing, it still bleeding, but its still in recovery process , total recovery will took around 3-4 weeks .

Here i am , blogging with a cool pack on my forehead, pale face and i looked like a confinement lady .... 2 more weeks before i can fully recover , insyaALLAH..

:: a lil update ::

-on thursday i went thru endoscopic sinus surgery and restructured my crooked nose , everything went smoothly.
- gladly to wake up surrounded by all the important people, my parents, my favourite aunt , and all my besties .
- Down with high fever the next day, highest tempreture check is 39.4 , nose bleeding non stop and in very bad pain .
- spend the whole weekend sleeping .
- now getting better and recovering, alhamdulillah .

:: uddyn's 9th Birthday ::

if u think im tall , look at my brothers


Blackberry Cheesecake

Enjoying the dessert
Our lepak session, as usual
A Suprised birthday cake for uddyn ,
it was a hush2 thing,
he didnt know the gathering is for him .


Happy Boy
Surrounded by all the brothers who loves him

:: On doing my part and moved on with life ::

What i have done for the past few days ( since i got back from Bangkok to be exact )

- I was so busy with Al Ansar maulid preparation, one of my student are selected to make a presentation for the maulid and i was appointed to guide her . Mariam did a good job , and im proud of her .

- Had a very fruitful meeting with mega express communication .

- An eye opening meeting with tarmizi , once he was a low profile, average and invisible student at aljunied , now he's totally changed, more outspoken , confident . hope to work with u more on our upcoming projects .

- Had a very long chit chat cum supper session with kak yati, kak ita, abg sani husain and his wife at simpang bedok . its been a long time since i met them, tak lama sgt la, the last time is when i watched taukey wayang a musical.

- i missed my bestfriend's fiance birthday celebration due to work commitment , Happy Birthday Dedek !

- My schedule for may until july is fully packed, i have more than 4 events to oraganise , alot of planning , organising, and hiring to be done , currently looking for models can commit with me for 4 days in may and a certified cosmoprof makeup artist .

- Not been attending gym session for a week now , by the time i finished all my work, im too tired to run at the treadmill .

-wrote a confession note.some people might think that what i did is a bit desperate , but i see it as a way for me to release my stress and my wild thoughts that been hunting me since last year , i don't have the courage to penned everything that i felt at first, but after gathering so much guts , i did it ! , i penned every single thoughts and feeling that i had since last year. and i felt a HUGE relieve , yes a huge relieved ! , now i am more productive at work , giving more focus at upcoming projects . i told myself that i dont mind what is the outcome , but still deep inside i was hoping that i wont be experiencing any ""excruciating pain"" outcome . i know that i wont be able to survive another "pain" .

- Had a nice dinner at my favourite place Badoque with someone who-is-potentially-to-be-mr-right-according-to-my-mum , but not to me . ok, im not being choosy, i have my reasons .

-

:: sorry ::

For friends who patiently waiting for the pictures to be uploaded
i'm so sorry
jangan kata belom edit, upload to computer pon belom, still in SD card
i'm so sorry
been very busy
Hope U understand

Love U !

:: why ? why ? why ? ::

He cheated on you,
U stayed faithful to him

He scolded U infront of ur friends
U just keep quiet

He asked u to abort the baby
U followed his instruction

He strangled U while u are sleeping
U forgive Him

Is this what u called love ?
Bullshit !

Jadi pompan jangan jadi bodoh !

:: a fruitful meetings ::

Yesterday meeting with the bridal shop owner is a very fruitful one, i learned a lot about business . and really looking forward for our bridal showcase

:: I guess I loved U ::

This is the reason i'm so hooked up this song, besides the meaningful lyrics , i've heard her sang this song live @ my aunt's kitchen ! and im totally in love with it

:: when she came to town ::

Yesterday , a very close family friend came to town , its been a year i last met her during "Music -Music " finals competition singing her hit song "sembunyi" . This is not her first visit to singapore, her last show her is 2-3 years back when she perform duet with M. Nasir @ esplanade. Ok she the one and only misha omar .

So yesterday, she came to singapore as " kak ah " not misha , my aunt fetched from the airport and they proceed to taka for breakfast and i met them for coffee , we had a very long chat at starbucks wisma , talking about life experience , up and downs of life , about she telling me to persue my dreams and go all out for what i believe in, and of course,ade nangis2 session which is also known as "neng yatimah session" . We proceed to Lucky plaza to find her a hair wig , she needed it for her upcoming shows ,i encountered my first experience to see when an artist got ambushed by fans , but to me is more like "tailong mintak hutang " , we were walking and talking and suddenly a young lady just grab kak ah's hand and pull her aside, i was shocked at first , but u have to see kak ah's face, lagi shocking !, hahaha, and reality hits me, that im actually walking with a public figure .

Another funny incident happened when we took the "singapore duck tour" , we bought the tix as Malaysian, but when we rode the "duck" we told the tour guide that were are from philippines , its kak Ah's idea, because the tour guide is a malay, but again, siapa tak kenal misha omar kan , so the tour guide came to us and asked, kak ah denied it at first, but bila finish the tour, she meet that tour giude and confessed ,of course, the tour guide pon excited ar .

We had our dinner at marina , and observe the sunset from the open space at the food court, its soo beautiful, then came dian to join us for dinner. At first we planned to bring her to arab street , to experience the atmosphere there but again ..... kene ambushed lagik

around 9 we went to starbucks near orchard hotel for coffee.this time, cik nyen and cik ashar also joined us .

we went to hard rock cafe around 11pm to watch kumar's show , pecah perut k , should watch it again, we did enjoy our nite.

Today going to be another day, we going to "masak-masak", one of our family traditions, might be cooking buffalo wings and shepherd's pie , and going to watch, Brian Mcknight concert tonite with the aunties and kak ah .

p/s : didn't take many pictures because i felt unappropriate to take her pictures for personal gain .

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:: Happy Birthday Ibu ::

thanks for being the best mother ever

:: i really looking forward to ..... ::

Im really looking forward to these events :

1 ) Ubin photoshoot

2) Ibu's Birthday

3) Shira's Birthday

4) Theater "tauke wayang " , Mr Am first debut on acting theater .

5 ) Fiza Teddie's Birthday

6) Am's bestfriend pre-wedding photoshoot

7 ) Of course, My birthday

8 ) Bangkok trip with am, syahid, yanto, shira, faizal and yani .


and of course, between these events , im looking forward to my besties and single's club lepak sessions, watching movies and my photography understudy program . *wink*wink*

:: too much waves ::

Latest updates

My friends and i are all down with flu and fever , hahaha, too much of Henderson Waves i guess

:: Finally, Henderson Waves ::

I always wanted to go to Henderson Waves to experience the view and of course for hobby purpose , but apa nak buat, no one wants to teman me .

So yesterday after dinner, we were discussing about when should we lepak as the malam masih muda ,Izhar suggested we went to Henderson Waves , i was thrilled and super excited of course , but tak buat kecoh ar, excited dalam hati jer .
Mind you, we were there at around 10 plus , and have to walk through the forest walk , semua muka action berani .













After a few group shots , we chatted , a few interesting topics were brought up by some of us, regarding mati , hari kiamat, prophet and of course, pasal kawin , haha, mentang2 ada bride and groom to be . cakap punya cakap, it almost 2am and there are still alot of people wandering around the bridge.
I shall say , yesterday outing was the best and the most memorable one , dont ask me why , but i guess the others felt the same way too ...

:: 2nd hand market @ Tanglin Mall ::

Yesterday , my friends and i tried our luck in selling our personal belongings at Tanglin Mall Flea Market , eventhough it was raining heavily, there still a huge crowd , Filipinos rate ,Foreigners , students and even makciks are there . better to sell off u thing dari terperuk jer dalam almari , kan ! kan ! kan !

:: mana nak dapat eh ::

Today , after a few days of "strike " from doing housework , i decided to cook my parent's favourite dish , ikan belado , im not a big fan of fish , so u can imagine how freaked i was when my mum asked me to cut and wash the fish . i actually pujuk my mum , telling her that she can ask me to do everything but not cutting the fish ...but she insisted . so tak nak jadi anak durhaka, i did ,but during the attempt of cutting the fish, i accidently cut my finger .

ibu : mana ade orang potong ikan tutup mata .

me : kan i told u , i tak pandai and tak nak potong ikan

ibu : eh , nanti ur husband nak makan ikan camne ?

me : senang jer , cari laki yang tak makan ikan , like me .......

ibu : tunggu la sampai tua ......( and i can see disappointment at her face, she must be saying "apa nak jadi ngan anak dara aku "


so people , please doa for me , so i can get a future husband who don't like to eat fish , so i tak payah gi pasar or cut the fish ...

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Hi Miss Mai,

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" what i really cannot take is any form of betrayal "

its been 2 weeks since my dad was hospitalized, nothing to worry, he's enjoying himself
a packed weekend for me
still undecide plans for CNY holiday , so ladies, please make up ur mind !
and i badly miss all my besties !