:: My Weekend with them ::

Aniq
we cooked chilli crab from scratch
and i made philly cheese sandwhich

:: on being left out ::

Sometimes i think i should stop thinking about others
"aku ade pikir pasal orang tapi ade orang pikir pasal aku"
sounds fimiliar?
im going on to that mode again now
thanks and fcuk off !

:: Us, cousins ::

:: Eriqa Rindiyani ::

:: Eriqa Rindiyani ::

My sweet little niece
Eriqa Rindiyani
more pictures to be uploaded ..

:: jumpy jumpy jump ::

i want to bungee jump , seriously
tu la, mak kasi duit suro gi bungee jumping, kau buat shopping, padan muka

:: engagement project 1 ::

:: heart or brain ::

i admit , when comes to relationship, i often think about the possibilities that will happen in future if im with that particular person , i will always take counts about his family background , education, salary and most important his vision for future , and again i admit im being paranoid and being too choosy .

My friends always told me , when the time comes, all the important matters doesn't really matters , when you really like that person your heart will overcome your brain

And i guess its true ....

:: On Being Mai ::

Lately, a few friends and people around me been asking me about a few nicknames that i had , i guess they are confused every time they come to my place and hear my dad calling me with different names .

When i was between 3 months and 9 months old , im the most fattest , chubbiest and of course heaviest baby , my maternal aunties describes me as "marshmallow men" from the movies ghost buster , and there they got a nickname for me "mai montel" , until now , a few of them still calling me by that name . But at my dad side, is a different story ,aunties from my dad's side always call me "ratu bedok" because when i was ard 1-3 years old , i will the centre of attraction at bedok interchange when my mum passed me to my aunt before she went off to work, according to my aunt, its a common sight for the regular commuters at the interchange , just imagine, i was so cubby , dah la berat, melalak lagi, kesian makcik ku yg kurus .

When i was in kindergaten years , my dad loves to call me "mekno" , everytime i didint do my homework properly ,memorize timetable or get bad grades he will scare me by telling me that im adopted from a couple from kelantan and threaten to send me back there .i can still remember how scared i will get eveytime he said that. i guess its a good theory to get ur child to excel in studies , shall do that to my future kids . hahah


Mai SB was given by my girlfriends because of my love for sleeping, some people been asking me what does SB stands for , sometimes paisey jugak nak confess, takut orang kata perasan, but SB stands for Sleeping Beauty, besides shopping and taking pictures , sleeping is my another favourite hobby.

:: all the same ::

Some bad rumours about me being spread right now saying that i "pilih kasih"
but its not true
i love all my cousins equally
i may be the fierce one among all the "kakak2" , but being fierce doesn't mean i dont care
Lillah , i love my family

:: the end ::

Today , its officially OVER !

:: i will be away ::

Its just the matter of time before i leave everything , i'm tired of being here , swallowing everybody's negative thoughts , pretending as if im ok , seeing people come and go , being left alone , being used to benefit others .

I felt stupid for not leaving earlier , i cared too much about other people's feeling but do they care about mine ? Heck No !

&

No , i'm not being sensitive

&

Yes , i love my family ,girlfriends and bestfriends alot
i'm nothing without them

:: on advicing my ex and his wifey ::

I've been "advicing " my ex and his wifey how to adapt to each other's behavior and accepting each other flaws .

but today ,

it was a bit shocking when she asked me how to make her husband "happy"

My reply :

u took him away and now u asking me how to make him happy ?!?!

:: On being super sensitive ::

Some people are just super sensitive

But they are in BIG denial

unfortunately , i met 2 of these species today

:: Family chalet 2008 ::