:: just want to let u noe ::

i went thru the same process with some other applicant
and i got it for the second time
but my parents wont allow me


so people,

i do have brain OK !! and im not stupid !



and dont tell me its luck !

when boys become men

for the first time,
i saw his softer side,
he hugged me for the first time when we took picture together,
i could sense his feeling sad since morning
from his face, i know ,he's crying inside

but he remain cool


and i tried my best not to cry


when its time to leave the house,
he salam all of us





and cried

for the first time, i saw him crying (sejak dah besar la kan)


and all of us crying, udin, oshin, fit, ali and me



maybe lepas tu semua paisey nak tunjuk muka nangis,semua buat hal masing2, udin masuk my room, oshin masuk toilet bilik, ali masuk toilet dapur, fit baring atas katil and i'm all alone in the living room





i wonder how my bro will survive there, can he do his own laundry?can he wake up on his own? can he do his bed?seriously im very worried for him, but this is a good opportunity for him to be independent, no more kakak or ibu to help him :D


everybody sat quietly during iftar, i guess everyboday terasa that he's not around
then suddenly my father said, "tadi on the way to tekong, abg kata, dia nangis sebab bukan takut kene NS, tapi dia sedih nak tingalkan korang, dia sayang u all, he will miss u all"


it just make me felt so sad, and semua dah start nak nangis ......




lepas solat magrib, semua mata merah2, including my dad




since kecik lagi, i and ibrahim memang selalu sangat gadoh, time kecik2 dulu, kita gaduh pasal berebut nak picit lift la, nak masuk rumah dulu la, sapa hafal time table paling cepat etc..etc... even sampai dah besar gini pon, masih selalu gaduh... gaduh nak pakai computer, nak tgk tv, yang paling best, gaduh nak masuk toilet, always happen....


tapi now bila dia takde, i miss him pulak...
i think, everybody in dis house miss him

oshin miss him because takde orang nak layan dia
udin miss him because dah takde orang nak main car race track with him
ali miss him because dah takde orang nak campak2 baju kat bilik
fit miss him because no one to layan his merepekness
ayah miss him because no one nak teman him tengok bola
and the one who misses him the most, is my mum, sebab no one can joke ard with her



we're looking forward for his return on the 28



and im crying while typing dis entry

:: sorry miss mai , u're not in the list !! ::

Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan, tetapi pada Kekuatan perasaan. Perempuan yang gagah, adalah:-

1) Perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan


2) Perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan


3) Perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan


4) Perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar dipenuhi segala keinginan."




alamak, im sooooo not int the list !!!!



i tak gagah ker ?!?!??!!

:: perfect ::

im happy today

thanks for the suprise

it was perfect

everything is so beautiful

im happy

all i need to do now is pray



allahumma layyinli qalbahu kama luyyinat lidawadil hadid


ameen

:: official photos are out !! ::

- Girls Who Like Dad Favor Partners Who Look Like Him

"Study adds to evidence that mate selection is active process rooted in childhood -- Robert Preidt SUNDAY, June 17 (HealthDay News) --

Women who had a good childhood relationship with their father are more likely to choose partners who resemble their father, new research suggests.

The study, published in the July issue of the journal Evolution and Human Behavior by British and Polish psychologists, also found that women who had a negative/less positive childhood relationship with their father weren't attracted to men who looked like their father.

The researchers had 49 Polish women (eldest daughters) look at pictures of 15 faces and choose the one they found most attractive. Their selections were compared to their fathers' faces. The women were also asked to rate their childhood relationship with their father.

The findings offer new insight into how people select partners and the effect that parents have on the process, the researchers said. Until recently, it was believed that this parental influence was a passive process. But this study adds to growing evidence that it's actually an active process.

The results of this study 'show for certain that the quality of a daughter's relationship with her father has an impact on whom she finds attractive. It shows our human brains don't simply build prototypes of the ideal face based on those we see around us, rather they build them based on those to whom we have a strongly positive relationship. We can now say that daughter who have very positive childhood relationship with their fathers choose men with similar facial characteristics to their fathers, "study author Dr, Lynda Boothroyd of Durham University said in a prepared statement .

:: i'm missing you ::

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
The face I came to know is missing too
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were,
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me

Being 20ish

i asked myself bout wat had i achieved in my twenties

pikir


pikir


pikir


i just realised , i havent achieved apa2 yg boleh di bangga kan


so wasted !!!

Being 20ish

i asked myself bout wat had i acheived in my twenties

pikir


pikir


pikir


i just realised , i havent achieved apa2 yg boleh di bangga kan


so wasted !!!