confused

Before i went to NZ, i was really in a very confusing situation, not because, whether is a rite choice to go to NZ or not, whether is rite to leave uddin or not, but wat im doing to myself, the nite before, for the first time, i did wat they call, muhasabah diri before sleep, tapi bukan muhasabah for the thing i done in the day, but i muhasabh things yang i buat for the past few few few years back, then dari situ tergerak la, untuk try to ask pertunjuk from HIM, and solat istikharah. and i did

I really enjoy my trip there, but something very unpredictable happen to me there, and the impact is still here with me, which now leave me more into the confusing situation.

All i need now is guidance from ALLAH, to show me the rite path, and prevent me from doing anything stupid.

Why ?

i always out of pure stupidity put 101% in every relationshipthat i get into, altho i always tell myself that i need at least reserve 20% and only put 80% in any relationship, so that i will rebounce back into perfect shape with that 20% , but my emotional self refuse to listen to my inner thoughts

falling in love with the wrong person, feels so good and happy

but

falling in love with a right person, feels so wrong and confused

Why?

attention

back to school today

back to reality

no more holiday

a new lecturer

he's indian

i cant understand wat is he saying

but i can communicate with him merepek eh

business finance is tough

i hate numbers

mit up with fiza for dinner

went to reflex

ate waffle

im craving for cheesecake

i have cupcakes order for the weekends

i miss blossom

i miss pink

i miss nur

i miss my parents

they still in SG, but dis week both of them on nite shift

i need attention

i need attention

i need attention

i need attention

i need attention

seriously

i need attention

key of my life

they are leaving in a week time, to visit mindanau, philipines. they nak visit the islamic law college that they been helping financially for the past few years, their latest project is to built a mosque ard the area, so the muslim there have a proper place to pray, semoga ALLAH sahaja yg balas kebaikan both of them. Ayah, if u reading dis entry @ work, just wanna to say , im really sorry for being very naughty lately, heehee, ive been staying out late because of the assignment i have to hand in, graduating sooon, yey !, insyaALLAh
My Dearest father, can i go for another holiday after my graduation ? huhuhuhu :P

Just want u to noe, that i loveee u and ibu so much......

Bajuri Family Online

Dear Friends

my family just launched our very own website , u can email me @ missmai@51jlnsayang.org

51, jalan sayang is the address of our house yg kita tinggal sama2 dulu located at kembangan.

Dear Cousins

Please email me ur engagement, wedding, graduation pictures

and of course

our embrassing pictures during our childhood

Dear Uncles and Aunties

Please email me ur wedding pictures

i think we shud schedule a photoshoot for our latest family potrait

Christchurch & Queenstown, New Zealand

fat fat me

scenery from the skyline

Queenstown, New Zealand



Shotover Jet ride

Blue Pool

Franz Josef Glacier

New Zealand

Dian & Me at changi Airport
Christchurch Airport
Ismail Rafiqiy

Our camper van

wont describe much bout my trip there, but will post alot and lots of pictures, ive taken nearly 1000 pictures there, subhanallah, the secenery there lawa sekali, i dont mind living there, its winter there, when i reached there, the weather is 3 degrees, super cold,gettng colder day by day, on the day im leaving, the weather is -4 degrees, eventhou im freezing cold there, i still enjoy myself there, the scenery, the people and and the atmosphere is so amazing. nama2 tempat kat sana cute cute tau, like, numner, wanaka,lake wakatipu,koikura , akaori,greymouth, cromwell,omakau,arrowtowm, palmer stone, brighton, waitaki. franz josef glasier, fox glacier,hokitaka, mount cook,and banyak banyak lagi basically dis the route that i pass thru when driving, we had covered 3/4 of north new zealand,better gi sendiri, drive, take ur own sweet time, tgk scenery. went to queenstown, a place ppl come to climb the mountain and ski