:: Weekend Gelore ::

A well spent weekends with besties, probably we just cant have enough of each other :-P

Saturday

- Iftar at "Lucky Prata" , simply because Nurul is craving for Fish head curry.
- Went to Wisma , simply because Nurul and shira craves for Famous Amos .
- Spinalli @ The heeren , had coffee and chat while waiting for our midnite movie .
- Cathay Cineleisure , to watch "4bia "
Our night ended around 3am


Sunday

- Meet up with gang at marsiling mart around 4pm
- Went to "Bimla" in search of out bajuS
- Iftar at Nurul's place
- Proceed to Geylang Bazaar to continue our search for our Baju raya, semua dah dapat baju except for me and shira.
Our night ended around 1130,

I had a fun time with them !

:: something is missing ... ::

After buka today, i tried to release my stress by taking a stroll at the park, i need to clear my head, something been bothering me since afternoon , how sincere can someone be after she knows that she is the caused of all problems ? , no one can answer that, maybe she herself can't really answer that .

Everybody has their own ego, presumably we were given ego for a reason , i think great people have great egos, that is what makes them great and different in their own way . but in a good way lar kan . i dont deny i do have BIG ego, yes, BIG ego , maybe people dont see it, but my dear friends are super aware about my irritating, selfish ego . and im not a humble person


actually im not really sure what im writing about, there is soo many things in my head right now, too many things to think, i just feel that i need to penned down everything that im thinking right now .

Yes, i do love my family, very much, im thankful to have such a wonderful family, blessed to have a very understanding father , and a caring mother, and im truly blessed to have siblings who respect and love me , cousins, uncles and aunties who is so much involved my life ,

I really need my friends to be around me, but i do really need them in my life , they are the most understanding people and they accept me as who i am , i never told them how much i love them directly , but at least i penned it down .


NO, im not a confusing person , i know what im doing and what i want , there is something missing in my life and im still searching for it . but seriously, im still not sure what im looking for.



i miss everybody, sorry for not being myself , i need time

:: untitled ::

the people around me knows that im going to be there for them when they need me
but i dont feel the same way for them

:: cinta ini membunuhku ::

Kau membuat, ku berantakan.
Kau membuat, ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat, ku tak berdaya.
Kau menolak ku, acuhkan diri ku.

Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,

ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
cinta ini, membunuh ku.

Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,
ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
cinta ini, membunuh ku.

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
cinta ini, membunuh ku

i guess its true when u are frusturated with someone who u love deeply

:: dont judge a book by its cover ::

After posting some pictures, i received a personal msg from someone .Here are my answers to all ur questions, u know who u are.

This is supposed to be an angry entry , but i dont care what people think about me , because i believe in myself .

People are judging my way of life from the pictures i posted in multiply, they think im leading a confusing life , just want to let u know that im not !, im leading a very happy and thankful for everything i have, im blessed with family and friends who loves me alot and accept me as who i am .

My circle of friends maybe "wild" , but they know the true meaning of friendship, no jealousy, backstabbing, no bitching and stay with me thru thick and thin ! , they may not be educated academically , but they have gone thru experince in life from me .Yes , they do have the typical singapore teenage lifestyle, but not once they influence me in joining them . They are so protective of me , they often says that they dont want me to be like them .

and yes , i do have a night life , but in a healthy way , i chilled out with them but not in clubs, think people, night life doesnt have to be in clubs or bars , there are alot of places are open 24 hours and doesn't include liquor .

and about batasan antara perempuan lelaki , yes, i do have my limits with guys, they really respect me, believe it or not , they were there and very supportive of me when im in trouble or when im down ,even tho they are just husband or bf of my girlfriends .

Im wearing hijab whenever i went out with them and they dont care , if u think that i mencemarkan nama baik wanita muslimah just because i have friends like them, then i think there is something wrong with u, is either ur jealous or u have no frens , ive been frens with people fully hijab but hati busuk nauzubillah,pakai tutup2 tapi bitching about each other behinds people's back , im not saying sesiapa yg fully hijab is jahat but ini semua hati masing2 , as people always says, dont judge the book by its cover , jangan hanya kerana my friends pakai seksi2 and rambut colour, u nak judge them as something unappropriate.


Fyi, i love my best friends very much, lillahi ta'ala

:: post engagement party ::

Date : 30 August 2008
Venue : Somewhere around town area
Featuring :
The Newly Engaged : Shira & Faizal
The Happily Married : Ida & Tsaqib
The Loving Couple : Nurul & Izhar
The Single & Available : Hambali , Mai & Shefa



Seniman Jalanan

The loving couple

we enjoyed ourselves until 430am in the morning

:: shahirah & faizal's engagement ::

Took a half day off on friday from work to spent times with bestie,Shira , faiza, and am (hambali ), went to "kampung collection" to pick up the engagement dress for shira and off we went to Keppel Bay tower, HTC service centre to sent am's phone and proceed Vivocity for late lunch. There was alot of last minute preparations to be done, and we are rushing most of the time ! and the nite ends quiet late for us .

On saturday morning , me, am and Siti (am's sister ) were there at the bride's place, she lives @ bukit panjang, i've been thur and fro bukit panjang for the past 3 days , nasib baik ade supir yg bernama am !, hahah ,

Am start to work his magic touch on shira ard 1030 am , and siti being a manicurist was very patience with shira's "tak boleh diam" attitude .

Just before zohor all the transformation was done, let all the pictures do the talking !

:: Historical History ::

Years had passed
but its just refresh all the memory
taking step at a time

:: Super Sick Spirit ::

To know something is wrong with me is scary
Its even worst when it not mentally or physically BUT Spiritually
By just revealing my name, and she knows EVERYTHING

:: pre engagement chill outs ::

:: i am ::

thanks for the negatives
and
thanks for the positives
it really makes me stronger

:: refraining myself from getting PHD ::

all the constant reading of M5 is getting me depressed
the sight of that book really pissed me off
i even purposely asked my maid to keep the book away from me

been busy thru out the whole week
and going to have another busy week ahead



had a great time with besties
all the conflicts and jealousy issues are solved , i guess


zara is on 50% sale
G2000 is on 70% sale
charles & keith on 50% sale
the only thing that keeping me away from shopping is work !

Im really here
all nite dreaming
i cant tell dream from true
its been so long
since i have since u
i can hardly remember ur face anymore
but its just a soothing feeling when i saw u
when i saw that smile
its all coming back
and believe me
i really did tried
to be a better one .

:: Jealousy is still a mental cancer in our society ::

What happen dis past week has really opened my eyes
Backstabbing issue is a never ending story
Jealousy is still a mental cancer
Being an hypocrite will not solve anything
Ignoring and bitching about each other will not solve any problem
Fear of not being accepted in a group is still a major problem
Just when i thought , i had everything
Problem arises
Hatred is still there
Even after school days are over.

:: i don't care ::

its not about ego
i dont care who u are
i dont care what u did
seriouly , i don't care
so people , stop judging !

:: Blessed ::

Aku sangkakan harapan selembut impian
Yang menguliti tidur insan
Kiranya kehidupan tidak sedemikian
Goyah hatiku oleh kenyataan
Tak harus kuturuti kelemahan diri
Tak daya bertahan diuji
Lalu aku mengumpulkan semula kekuatan
Berlandaskan keimanan...


had a very busy week
M5 is surely killing me bit by bit
i found the true meaning of friendship
thanks to them
im blessed to have friends like u gals
i really appreciate it

:: forgive & forget ....not ::

accidentally stumbled upon her profile

they are getting married less than 9 months

to be honest , im very upset

im not a forgiving person

as i said in the email , i will never forgive and forget

and i really hope he will get what he deserve.

:: 08.08.08 ::

suddenly , i remembered how it felt to be lonely again

I know i get over it

I've been thru it before

and i will get thru it this time

They will never understand

They will never stop talking

They will never stop assuming

and No One Will Ever Understand