:: something is missing ... ::

After buka today, i tried to release my stress by taking a stroll at the park, i need to clear my head, something been bothering me since afternoon , how sincere can someone be after she knows that she is the caused of all problems ? , no one can answer that, maybe she herself can't really answer that .

Everybody has their own ego, presumably we were given ego for a reason , i think great people have great egos, that is what makes them great and different in their own way . but in a good way lar kan . i dont deny i do have BIG ego, yes, BIG ego , maybe people dont see it, but my dear friends are super aware about my irritating, selfish ego . and im not a humble person


actually im not really sure what im writing about, there is soo many things in my head right now, too many things to think, i just feel that i need to penned down everything that im thinking right now .

Yes, i do love my family, very much, im thankful to have such a wonderful family, blessed to have a very understanding father , and a caring mother, and im truly blessed to have siblings who respect and love me , cousins, uncles and aunties who is so much involved my life ,

I really need my friends to be around me, but i do really need them in my life , they are the most understanding people and they accept me as who i am , i never told them how much i love them directly , but at least i penned it down .


NO, im not a confusing person , i know what im doing and what i want , there is something missing in my life and im still searching for it . but seriously, im still not sure what im looking for.



i miss everybody, sorry for not being myself , i need time