:: i miss .. ::

i really miss my time going out taking pictures , spent the whole day all by myself , walking alone

:: long waited edited pic ::

:: unconventional relationship ::

Tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku

Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu

Kini kau pergi dari hidupku

Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati

Sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi

Tak ada lagi cahaya suci

Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku

Kubersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku

Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku

Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu




i mean it ...

:: Lebaran with besties ::

:: mami jarum junior ::

im so pissed off with one of my friends , she is so damn irritating ! , dah la hidup menyusahkan aku, ade hati nak buat cerita pasal orang, menjajah cerita mcm mami jarum ! ,

:: super cranky behaviour ::

Yes, ive been really frustrated these past weeks, pms ? maybe , but to some people , pms or not , im always cranky , but these week memang tops, im super cranky ! , maybe because im not getting enuff attention , or maybe im giving too much attention to others until i forget about my responsibilities and priorities .

Got the chance to meet up with bestfriends on monday , we chatted until 12am , its feels good when im able to vent out some of my "unhappy" thots about someone , about our friendship , about our spending behaviour , my girlfriends and i are labelled as "high class people" by some of our former classmates .

Meet up with besties again on wednesday to celebrate syefa's birthday , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYEFA ! , hahaha, aku tahu, kau la peminat setia blog aku , had a fun time with them, as usual, dinner , then gossipping, but this time we did something very interesting , we played true & dare , but there is no dare involved, just plain truth . my friends do really grilled me on some issues which always have remain secret to myself, but i did confess a few issue, as for me ,i managed to asked all questions which always remain unasnwered about my friends , ladies, we shud do dis more often !!!

I just had a huge argument with someone i really thot was a nice person , i really thot that our discussion about certain topics are finished before hari raya , suprisingly, we msned each other today and he started the topic again, he insulted me for not showing a good example as a muslimah , he say is indirectly , but i understand what he meant , memang betul im from didikan madrasah , dia ingat if from madrasah jer , mesti jadi ustazah ?!? , cannot ade social life ?!? , tak boleh ade kawan lelaki ?!? tak boleh ade night life ???! , yes, memang i dari madrasah , memang belajar pasal hukum, tapi i dont practise most of it , and im not proud to say that k , i know i can be better than dis .
I know u will be reading dis , so pls dont judge me ! , awak tak kenal siapa saya , we only knew each other less than 2 mths , and its online online ! , im writing it here because i dont have the chance to defend myself tadi .

On people being backstabber and mulut tempayan , firstly, i really hate people with this behaviour , but i tried my best to understand this type of people , based on my observation , dis people really lead a pathetic life, takde kemajuan dalam hidup , and yang paling penting,tiada keriangan dalam kehidupan mereka , they lead their life like a time-table , they need STORIES to spice up their life and to socialise with other people . takpe la , biar apa orang nak cerita or buat mulut , yang penting, tak payah nak jadi artist , tak payah nak buat gimmick or scandal , people will always talk .

FInally today huda managed to rent a van for our jalan raya on sunday , really looking forward for our outing and our photoshoot , kalau family ade family photo , ni kita ade friendship photo . will post alot and lots of pictures sooon !

:: typical malay makciks ::

Hari Raya sepatutnya menjadi satu hari yang amat memeriah kan, but for me macam dah jadi satu beban pulak , i always myself trying to avoid some makcik or kalau dah TER involve in the conversation, i always try to change the topic .My brother used to think that im being paranoid or "perasan-orang-asyik-cakap-pasal-dia jer, mana-punya-jambu-jer" , but this year, he experinced how i felt , he got so irritated when people keep asking him question like , "bila abis NS ?" , "camne NS ? bagus ?", "lepas NS nak buat apa ?" .


I think ni semua sudah memang dalam our culture , or maybe they saja nak memeriahkan suasana hari raya dengan ambil tahu perkembangan masing2, ok ok, now think positive, maybe they just prihatin dengan kehidupan kita . but it will just be never-ending .


Kenapa never ending ?


It will all started right after PSLE , parents will start compare their child's aggregate , wallahi, this one, i experience it myself , lepas compare aggregate, cakap pasal which secondary sch pulak , sampai la abis poly / JC years , this is the time mothers will feel the pressure.


Nanti bila dah abis school, people will start to asked

- dah ade boyfren ? , kalau dah ade
- Bila nak kawin ? . Bila dah kawin
- Bila nak ade anak ? bila dah ade anak
- Bila nak ade no 2 , bila dah ade anak 2
- Bila nak anak no 3 , bila dah ade anak no 3
- anak no 1 sekolah mana ?, see , dah start balik tanya pasal school .start balik from stage 1

So its never ending !

:: Eid Mubarak 2008 ::