:: sorry ::

For friends who patiently waiting for the pictures to be uploaded
i'm so sorry
jangan kata belom edit, upload to computer pon belom, still in SD card
i'm so sorry
been very busy
Hope U understand

Love U !

:: why ? why ? why ? ::

He cheated on you,
U stayed faithful to him

He scolded U infront of ur friends
U just keep quiet

He asked u to abort the baby
U followed his instruction

He strangled U while u are sleeping
U forgive Him

Is this what u called love ?
Bullshit !

Jadi pompan jangan jadi bodoh !

:: how many of ur friends who stay with u through up and downs of life ? ::

I can actually count how many of my friends who stays with me through all the hardship i went through , and the numbers are less than 5 , seriously , I'm known to have a lot of friends , but the one i can really trust , who i can really rely on when I'm penniless , or someone who constantly checked on me when i heartbroken , are only few .

Today , i realized there are friends who only want to have "fun" with you , they will give full commitment to something that will give them joy and excitement , but when it comes to hardship , helping each other , to be a listening ears to troubled friends , they will avoid , they will disappear when u are at the lowest point of your life .

And there are friends who will stick to u no matter what happens , either you are rich or poor, stupid, clumsy , these are the friends that i've been with through out these years .


Not forgetting friends who only make use of you , financially and physically . these people memang tak patut di hargai and harus di tinggalkan segera , or it will be a virus to ur life .


As i promised someone, my 25th birthday will be a turning point in my life , i should eliminate them who makes use of me , stay with the ones who has proven their sincerity in friendship , to pursue my dream and move on with life .

:: when she came to town day 2 ::

Not much was done today , except for mengemok kan diri with buffalo wings and shepherd pie, and mug-mugs of coffee . A mini acapella song from keris patih by kak ah for all the other cousins , autograph signing session, but its not fair, she wont sign mine, she said i was merepek , chet !

Told her about "taukey wayang" theater , but she will see her schedule if she can make it . I didn't know that am was a big fan of kak ah , i tot am was more to cik siti's fan .

Went to esplanade to see sexy Mr Brian Mcknight

Tot of makan tulang at beach road, but she afraid that it will stain her braices , takut gigi merah kak ? hahah , she going to appear at Zoom in this sunday at TV2

Had supper at Zam Zam

Most probly will spent time with her again tomorrow before she head back to KL .

:: nurul tsurayaa birthday party ::

but again, its just the picture of us

:: he just could'nt let go ::

he just coulnt let go, he loves it too much,
ukasyah , don't worry , nanti ummi pasang pole kat rumah k ! *wink wink*

:: untitled ::

" what i really cannot take is any form of betrayal "

its been 2 weeks since my dad was hospitalized, nothing to worry, he's enjoying himself
a packed weekend for me
still undecide plans for CNY holiday , so ladies, please make up ur mind !
and i badly miss all my besties !

:: thanks for cheering up my day ::

:: 2008 ups and downs ::

- first trip to KL with dian and dearest aunty , a happening one and unforgetable
- the whole family drove to KL to attend relatives wedding in KL, a total of 30 peoples staying in a 3 room apartment , imagine that, but its a fun experince for me .
- asissting a guy fren in his outdoor photoshoot at Singapore Zoo .
- My dearest grandfather passed away exactly 1 month from our last trip to KL .
- Fell in love
- Besties suprised me with a birthday dinner .
- Trip to jakarta with my bestie .
- Heartbroken , this experience really open my eyes , from this incident i can see who i can really rely on and whos not
- The birth of Shaik Ukasyah Rayyan , Maryam, Aliyyah ,Eriqa Rindiyani and Muhd Aniq
- Meeting old flame
- Dearest shahirah and faizal got engaged
- Im honoured to be their official photographer for the engagement ceremony
- Dearest Pink got married !
-Besides the night life and the outing, all of that shud sums up my 2008

:: i will be away ::

Its just the matter of time before i leave everything , i'm tired of being here , swallowing everybody's negative thoughts , pretending as if im ok , seeing people come and go , being left alone , being used to benefit others .

I felt stupid for not leaving earlier , i cared too much about other people's feeling but do they care about mine ? Heck No !

&

No , i'm not being sensitive

&

Yes , i love my family ,girlfriends and bestfriends alot
i'm nothing without them

:: On being super sensitive ::

Some people are just super sensitive

But they are in BIG denial

unfortunately , i met 2 of these species today

:: super cranky behaviour ::

Yes, ive been really frustrated these past weeks, pms ? maybe , but to some people , pms or not , im always cranky , but these week memang tops, im super cranky ! , maybe because im not getting enuff attention , or maybe im giving too much attention to others until i forget about my responsibilities and priorities .

Got the chance to meet up with bestfriends on monday , we chatted until 12am , its feels good when im able to vent out some of my "unhappy" thots about someone , about our friendship , about our spending behaviour , my girlfriends and i are labelled as "high class people" by some of our former classmates .

Meet up with besties again on wednesday to celebrate syefa's birthday , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYEFA ! , hahaha, aku tahu, kau la peminat setia blog aku , had a fun time with them, as usual, dinner , then gossipping, but this time we did something very interesting , we played true & dare , but there is no dare involved, just plain truth . my friends do really grilled me on some issues which always have remain secret to myself, but i did confess a few issue, as for me ,i managed to asked all questions which always remain unasnwered about my friends , ladies, we shud do dis more often !!!

I just had a huge argument with someone i really thot was a nice person , i really thot that our discussion about certain topics are finished before hari raya , suprisingly, we msned each other today and he started the topic again, he insulted me for not showing a good example as a muslimah , he say is indirectly , but i understand what he meant , memang betul im from didikan madrasah , dia ingat if from madrasah jer , mesti jadi ustazah ?!? , cannot ade social life ?!? , tak boleh ade kawan lelaki ?!? tak boleh ade night life ???! , yes, memang i dari madrasah , memang belajar pasal hukum, tapi i dont practise most of it , and im not proud to say that k , i know i can be better than dis .
I know u will be reading dis , so pls dont judge me ! , awak tak kenal siapa saya , we only knew each other less than 2 mths , and its online online ! , im writing it here because i dont have the chance to defend myself tadi .

On people being backstabber and mulut tempayan , firstly, i really hate people with this behaviour , but i tried my best to understand this type of people , based on my observation , dis people really lead a pathetic life, takde kemajuan dalam hidup , and yang paling penting,tiada keriangan dalam kehidupan mereka , they lead their life like a time-table , they need STORIES to spice up their life and to socialise with other people . takpe la , biar apa orang nak cerita or buat mulut , yang penting, tak payah nak jadi artist , tak payah nak buat gimmick or scandal , people will always talk .

FInally today huda managed to rent a van for our jalan raya on sunday , really looking forward for our outing and our photoshoot , kalau family ade family photo , ni kita ade friendship photo . will post alot and lots of pictures sooon !

:: iftar with ex schoolmates ::

:: untitled ::

the people around me knows that im going to be there for them when they need me
but i dont feel the same way for them

:: shahirah & faizal's engagement ::

Took a half day off on friday from work to spent times with bestie,Shira , faiza, and am (hambali ), went to "kampung collection" to pick up the engagement dress for shira and off we went to Keppel Bay tower, HTC service centre to sent am's phone and proceed Vivocity for late lunch. There was alot of last minute preparations to be done, and we are rushing most of the time ! and the nite ends quiet late for us .

On saturday morning , me, am and Siti (am's sister ) were there at the bride's place, she lives @ bukit panjang, i've been thur and fro bukit panjang for the past 3 days , nasib baik ade supir yg bernama am !, hahah ,

Am start to work his magic touch on shira ard 1030 am , and siti being a manicurist was very patience with shira's "tak boleh diam" attitude .

Just before zohor all the transformation was done, let all the pictures do the talking !

:: Blessed ::

Aku sangkakan harapan selembut impian
Yang menguliti tidur insan
Kiranya kehidupan tidak sedemikian
Goyah hatiku oleh kenyataan
Tak harus kuturuti kelemahan diri
Tak daya bertahan diuji
Lalu aku mengumpulkan semula kekuatan
Berlandaskan keimanan...


had a very busy week
M5 is surely killing me bit by bit
i found the true meaning of friendship
thanks to them
im blessed to have friends like u gals
i really appreciate it

:: is it true ? ::

One fine day, i received a call from one of my friends.


She : Mai , kau dah tgk sex & the city ?


Me : Dah, asal ?


She : takde tanya jer , i just want u to noe that perangai kau sama mcm Miranda.


Me : eh, asal lak ?


She : takde pape, when i watched that show, miranda's character reminds me of you


Me : so is it good or bad ?


She : of course its bad, ego and bully husband.


Me : ok, thats enuff, i heard enuff of people saying that i will bully my husband ( pissed off )

im quiet curious why people always think that im going to bully my hubby , even tho im not married, but im pretty sure that IM NOT GOING TO BULLY HIM.

if i did bully him , maybe it just becausre he really deserve to be bullied

Happy 24th Birthday to me !

Thanks to Dian & Farhan for the pre birthday suprise, thanks for the wonderful chocolate brownie and the diamond bracelet, seriously it was really unexpected.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes

Thanks to mimi and Shah for the advance 25th birthday !, aiyoooo, baru masuk 24 , dah ade orang wish 25.

A really big thanks to Huda, Izhar , Baby & Ida for the night full of suprises from u all,
im really touched , you all really made my day

Now, im busy packing for my holiday trip to Jakarta tomorrow, i promise my next entry will be full of pictures :D:D:D:D

: december 2007 :