:: Why ? ::

Friends are asking me why am i keep ignoring things happening around me ?
My answer :
will it change anything if i gave attention to it ?

Friends asking me about the bad rumors spreading about me ? Why i just keep quiet ?
My answer :
what can i do ? can it change someone perspective towards me ?

Friends asking me why i am always busy ?
My answer :
its better to get myself busy with productive things rather than doing nothing .

Friends asking me why am i getting too calculative with others ?
My answer :
If ur calculative me, then i will do the same thing .

:: extended mc ::

Being a hard headed person and can't stay at home type of person , after a few unsuccessful attempt to go out alone , i finally gather all the energy to make my way to Pasir Ris for a tuition session . By the time i reached Cik Ina's place , i felt really tired , and my nose start to bleed , seriosuly i didnt know the effect will be that bad ! . The kids told me that i looked very sick , and i have to call my cousin to fetch me because i just dont have the energy to travel home alone .

My second attempt to go out on my own was a successful , BUT tsaqib and saidah insisted to fetch me from home and make our way together to Arab street to celebrate yani's birthday . it was a fun night , usually gossips and juicy details , kids playing around , and the belly dancing show really makes my night , thanks to yana for celebrating yani, syahid and my birthday,walaupun dah due more than a month, im happy to celebrate my birthday with 2 of my favourite people !

On Sunday , i have a 3 hours long event , i tried not to show my sickness, but the clients notice it , they can see how bloated my face is , i didnt realised it until when i see it for myself , by then i know something was not right .... but i still proceed to Arab street to celebrate faizal's birthday and dinner with besties, it has been ages when i last saw them .

Went to Raffles hsopital , Dr Aw was shocked to see my face, and the high tempreture , he suspected that im allergic to one of the medication , after being tested and scope , yes the put a thin tube on my nose and push it in , my wound inside my nose, its not healing, it still bleeding, but its still in recovery process , total recovery will took around 3-4 weeks .

Here i am , blogging with a cool pack on my forehead, pale face and i looked like a confinement lady .... 2 more weeks before i can fully recover , insyaALLAH..

:: Eleven hints for life ::

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

:: a lil update ::

-on thursday i went thru endoscopic sinus surgery and restructured my crooked nose , everything went smoothly.
- gladly to wake up surrounded by all the important people, my parents, my favourite aunt , and all my besties .
- Down with high fever the next day, highest tempreture check is 39.4 , nose bleeding non stop and in very bad pain .
- spend the whole weekend sleeping .
- now getting better and recovering, alhamdulillah .

:: trust no one ::

even someone who is close to us cannot be trusted
u make me look bad on others
u make me look desperate
how dare u do that ?
now , irrational and ridiculous rumors about me being spread .
how am i going to face them ?
thanks alot !

:: uddyn's 9th Birthday ::

if u think im tall , look at my brothers


Blackberry Cheesecake

Enjoying the dessert
Our lepak session, as usual
A Suprised birthday cake for uddyn ,
it was a hush2 thing,
he didnt know the gathering is for him .


Happy Boy
Surrounded by all the brothers who loves him

:: ipooooooooood ::

i lost my ipod in bangkok
last seen, in hotel room

and its a birthday present from my aunt, exactly one year after she bought it for me
aarrgghh

:: On doing my part and moved on with life ::

What i have done for the past few days ( since i got back from Bangkok to be exact )

- I was so busy with Al Ansar maulid preparation, one of my student are selected to make a presentation for the maulid and i was appointed to guide her . Mariam did a good job , and im proud of her .

- Had a very fruitful meeting with mega express communication .

- An eye opening meeting with tarmizi , once he was a low profile, average and invisible student at aljunied , now he's totally changed, more outspoken , confident . hope to work with u more on our upcoming projects .

- Had a very long chit chat cum supper session with kak yati, kak ita, abg sani husain and his wife at simpang bedok . its been a long time since i met them, tak lama sgt la, the last time is when i watched taukey wayang a musical.

- i missed my bestfriend's fiance birthday celebration due to work commitment , Happy Birthday Dedek !

- My schedule for may until july is fully packed, i have more than 4 events to oraganise , alot of planning , organising, and hiring to be done , currently looking for models can commit with me for 4 days in may and a certified cosmoprof makeup artist .

- Not been attending gym session for a week now , by the time i finished all my work, im too tired to run at the treadmill .

-wrote a confession note.some people might think that what i did is a bit desperate , but i see it as a way for me to release my stress and my wild thoughts that been hunting me since last year , i don't have the courage to penned everything that i felt at first, but after gathering so much guts , i did it ! , i penned every single thoughts and feeling that i had since last year. and i felt a HUGE relieve , yes a huge relieved ! , now i am more productive at work , giving more focus at upcoming projects . i told myself that i dont mind what is the outcome , but still deep inside i was hoping that i wont be experiencing any ""excruciating pain"" outcome . i know that i wont be able to survive another "pain" .

- Had a nice dinner at my favourite place Badoque with someone who-is-potentially-to-be-mr-right-according-to-my-mum , but not to me . ok, im not being choosy, i have my reasons .

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:: Bangkok Day 4 ::

:: Bangkok Day 2 ::

:: Bangkok Day 1 ::