falling apart

my previous entry should be my last entry
but i have no choice
i need to penned down everything
i have no one to talk to
and i rather be alone

i've gained 5kg
dah nearly 2 mths tak go gym
im getting fatter and uglier,seriously

i'm starting to miss him again
badly

im starting to hate my life
i really do,seriously

for people who is reading dis
i need no sympathy, comment, or any advice from u
there is so much anger inside of me
so much pain
hatred


i wish i can just kill someone
or
maybe i can run away to another country, start a new life alone
or
maybe i just go to bahrain
or
maybe i just accept the fate that written for me


everybody deserve to be happy
but not me
im confused


my life is falling apart